For the past couple of weeks, I've been actively making it a point to work on my flaws and working on becoming a better mother and in fact a better woman, as I change certain aspects I don't like about myself, tackling one daily to-do list at a time. Because you know as they say "a happy woman is a happy wife... and a happy mom!".
So it got me thinking about how much my everyday attitude and actions influences my childrens' lives. When I set up my vision board last week, one thought that was continuously on my mind was my children. What kind of person do I want to be and what do I want them to see? I truly believe that our children are a reflection of us and with the upcoming presidential inauguration and last week's farewell address from President Barrack Obama I have been feeling all sorts of inspired to teach my children to be better humans, to be MORE kind and to be MORE compassionate of others. I want both of my kids to be strong willed but thoughtful and take charged but never look down at anyone. I want them to be gentle but strong and loving but fierce. I believe it is in our hands, as parents, to raise children who will do as you do and be as you are. So I had to take action.
Most recently I struggled with feeling like crap... I was in a rut for the first few days of the new year. And it made me realize how much of that uninspired person I didn't want to be, especially not in front of my kids. Being a mother is not easy task and any mother that says other wise is lying. I am confident enough to say that and say it again.
So one day I woke up and said "enough is enough" and I started to finally let go of stupid thoughts that were taking over my mind, those "I am not doing enough" or "I am not this or that" thoughts, because truly we each have the power to be exactly what we want to be. It took a lot of tears and moments of frustration but most of all prayer to get those negatives thoughts out of me.
For the passed 2 weeks I have been practicing the art of "letting go". Letting go of the fact that my house is never going to be 100% what I want to be or look like... that the laundry is never going to be caught up and my floors are never going to be 100% clean. The mess is a mess s a mess. Because I have two small children who are making a life in this small-humble-but-full-of-love home.
And amigas, you have no idea how much letting go of those thoughts have helped me. I've felt happier and lighter and I've had more patience and just been more at ease. And that's what I want my kids to see, a happy woman... who is a very happy mom.
I wanted to write this post to try and help you understand that I am with you on that struggle and those moments of depression and being in a rut and that my life is no Instagram feed and my life is not what social media makes it out to be. Because I feel like we are all trying to live up to Pinterest worthy lives and Instagram perfection. Now don't get me wrong, I do this for a living, as a creative being I love gorgeous photos and pretty feeds that inspire and spark my creativity. I love creating content and writing for brands that I love and use. But most of the time, that's all they are pretty photos. My content, my actual words and my stories (like this one!) is what I would want to make more of an impact in your life, as a loyal reader and woman or mom. And I hope I can accomplish that. If I can help one mother feel like she is not alone then this post is all worth the time it's taking me to write it. So next time you are feeling like sh*t... take a moment and step back, realize what you have and how blessed you are. And do these 3 things and I can guarantee that you will see change, if you do it from your heart, with all your soul.
Have a blessed and happy week. Let that #girlboss shine!